just friends
so the guy ive been seeing for the past two months has finally told me why he has been so distant from me. it turns out hes been in a relationship with someone else since december (so that makes them 5 months into their relationship). it hurts. what hurts more is that hes everything i wanted in another guy. he tells me he wants to still be friends and all and i say i do too, however i dont think those feelings for him will go away. his “boyfriend”, it hurts me to say it, is upset at the messages ive sent him. in all honesty i feel like its (the guy i have feelings for) his fault, hes been saying that he doesn’t know the future, and maybe we can be something. i can only hope for that, and that their relationship isnt as smooth as i can picture mine with him. his “guy friend” seemed intimidated which isnt healthy in a relationship, in my opinion, but i can only hope they split sometime (evil thought i know). this school semester has only been full of disappointment for me. before he offered to help me separate my feelings for him, but now that his “guy friend” knows hes upset with him and can only be there for me as a friend. i know there are other fish in the sea, but i feel like i caught the right one….its just that someone else stole it form me and he got away. so as of now, were friends. it hurts, but all i can do is suck it up, be the best friend i can be to him, and hope for someday he’ll realize the feelings i have for him and reciprocate them (after all he has confessed he likes me, i just hope there’s something left to hope for).
